I need a Friend. (Arlington Heights, IL)

I need a Friend.

Before I write and you read my post note that age race status etc or not important in friendship. So this post is meant for those like me meaning you come to C.L and look but would never reply. So this is a first for me hoping the reader understands my situation . That being said here goes. Please as you read put your self in my shoes. I am in a unhappy marriage and I can not change that or the fact she no longer loves me or treats me with any form of respect. I have become nothing to her accept someone to to chores for and the occasional person to be there as she attends events to show she has a husband . I stay because I love my daughter and came from a broken home and I do not want that for her until she can understand. I am reaching out because I can not tolerate this feeling each and everyday of loneliness sadness and lost in a world where I see life happening. I hope so far if your still reading that you have an idea why I am here. No I am not asking for a sexual relationship. That part of my life is over. She is not interested in me that way as well and hard as it is I am dealing with that. I not only feel this way because of her loss in being a wife and friend but I also lost my career along with all I had during the rescission and now I work 2 very low wage part time jobs. So I not only get treated like when I am at home but by work who knows there are many more like me willing to take what they can get just to work. I never though that would be me but it is and that to I am learning to live with. What I can not live without is a friend and yes I prefer a female friend yes to confide in but who might also be kind to me not put me down say I am funny and help me feel alive. I need and want to feel again. Like I said I am not asking for anything more. Sure I am human and on that small chance something occurred I would be open to discuss it but mainly I seek a special woman who will be a friend to me. As you can see I am not a kid any longer even though if you ask the few who are close to me that would say I enjoy the good as I can meaning I may be age 50 but have yet to fully grow up. That may be true I am not sure since I got lost in life. Last as I said I come here to read postings but never replied or posted so this is new to me but based on my readings here I know there are very cruel and scrupulous people on here. I may be alone in the world but I am still an intelligent man. That being said I hate spam and creeps as much as I hate robo or sales calls over the phone. To avoid that all I ask is you change the subject line to your favorite number or color. This way I know you want to chat and you fully read this post. Thank you in advance for reading and I truly hope my special friend reads and replies.