A New Beginning (Ottawa)

A New Beginning

Lost in a world of my own making I am struggling to find a path out of poverty and depression. I am Philip a 55 year old man who has lived a fair life travelled loved and lost yet due to an unorthodox upbringing I never learned to be social. Sure I have met friends along the way but it always ends up that they drift away or disappoint in some serious way. Some might think I am too critical too unforgiving yet to understand me and my life you really need to have lived it.Within the last three years I have lost my family my home my car and yes even my job. I have seemingly insurmountable debit which takes its toll even in finding work for Revenue Canada wants their back taxes and garnish any income I may obtain through direct deduction leaving any minimum wage position in a sub poverty class. I was suicidal but untreatable by the system for what I needed they could not or would not give so I was merely placated and left to try again and again. Well someone doesn t want me dead for after six attempts I am still here and the hospitals now merely look at my file wait till I m out of danger and release me back into a vicious cycle. For the last two and a half years I have tried in vain to get a new job but alas nobody seems to want to risk having an unstable element on their payroll. A man who is seen as mentally unstable and untrustworthy according to the church which fired him for lying in his deepest moments of anguish. Who could have believed a church could not understand the turmoil after having seen the stages develop and not been willing to forgive an error in judgement but alas that too is my burden. To make matters worse I ve little enough income from Ontario Works to even give myself a chance for with only 600.00 a month for rent food clothes and travel I have little options but to apply online.Now I know I can be of use to society but I need a car to facilitate getting a job clearing back debit and finding my place in this world. What I want is simple 9500.00 for a second hand car a years worth of insurance and a new beginning. If you can please help me find a way back if not God Bless and thank you for at least reading. www.gofundme.com 6pg855w4m28