all i ask is comprehension (Naples)

all i ask is comprehension

from you and from me. If you do not come talk to me I will have no reason to stay. I can start over someplace else that will not be a problem for me. I know it won t be easy but what ever was Becoming a mother to my sister at 8 years old Getting beat up by my brother and told it was normal. Seeing and hearing that my brother was untitled to receive money and spend it as he saw fit a nice sum might I add no questions asked while I was imposed everything. Simply because I am of a happy optimistic nature DOES NOT MEAN I got it made but when people are unable to think beyond their basic intincts it is easy to use the strange ones as targets. You have confused artists with ill intent people. There is a fine line. I was always nice to people always ready to help but there is only so much pain one can handle and after years of observation it is easy to see that there isn t indeed much to gain by continuying conversations around here. Always the same stories always the same misery always the same themes. Boring. Uninteresting. There are so many wonderful places in this world to see. Nature traditions art so much to be learned why would I want to listen to another drunk crying about his ex Sure I have empathy but my time is wasted. Wasted when I could have been home somewhere with a husband doing other things but it is what it is. Maybe I was wrong to assume that anyone could want more from me than to humiliate me. I am a story teller yes but every story and legend as truth to it. I guess if lucked out and looked like a magazine cover of the latest hot babe things would have been different but eventually a man thinking that way would have dumped me for a younger hot babe one day anyways. Too much to ask to sit next to a person in the evening or at night and simply feel safe and comfortable even if we are just sitting down reading a book or day dreaming.... I don t get it. Simplicity love and understanding. Trust and faithfullness is that really too much to ask Who needs songs planes or boats Who needs movies guns or swords Peace tranquility and someone to love and to be loved by. The only things that matter in life I mean I would think never had it so I am guessing that it would be the all to all but I suppose there is a reason for everything. I do not mind staying alone if that is my fate I ve always accepted it not quietly but so what I do have the right to express myself and unlike others I do not pretend to be somebody else I do not play those stupid remember me remember you games. For those who missed it Curiosity is not a sin just because I am looking at you does not mean more than that so...I will never go back to you any of you. I will never be with someone who takes his anger out on my car . What some of you did to me whatever God you are praying to (satan around here so it seems) will never forgive...and stop asking God for things he does have better things to do he s not an arron boy to satisfy your wondering desires. As for you yes still not sleeping so I m still all over the place as I hope you are still reading. I have one thing to say to you -P